Free From Desire

"Seething mass of conflicting needs and hopes, dreams, dreads, and longings..."*  Really?  My issue these days is that I have no desires.  I feel dried up, literally and figuratively.  A while ago I had been praying consistently that the Lord would liberate me from any desire that isn't part of His Highest Will for me.  The only life-germ left in me is the firm valuing of life itself, and the desire to be dependent emotionally on nothing but Christ.  I guess the Lord has answered my prayer!  But it feels so strange.  I am not used to this!  Feeling passionate about nothing is new to me!  Is this what is meant by detachment?  I don't know, but I do believe this is what I might call a golden crux: a golden moment and posture of being open to Being but otherwise not obliged or compelled to anything.  This is the kind of freedom that requires much strength!  What will I do with this freedom?  That's the point: it's a real choice.  Jesu juva.

*Quote from Margaret Silf's Inner Compass, Chapter 8: The Deepest Desire.

Divine Friend

I am Hoo, but Who are You, Lord?  Oh, praise be Your Holy Name, You are "I Am"!  Thank You, Lord, for Being!  These days I have less concrete images of You, except as Abba, Jesus, Spirit.  When I try to use words to think of how I think of You what comes to mind is Lover, Dance-partner, Friend.  Lord, I know I am not worthy to be any of these to You, but You are these to me; You are so generous.  I know You in these ways because You have invited me to be Your friend, and You challenge me to be a true lover, to work and dance Your Will, Your Celebration of Life.  Praise be Your Holy Name, dear Abba-Papa!  I love You!  Help me Love you more and more and better and better every day.  Praise be Jesus.  Blessed be the Holy Spirit.

I am who I am.  I am Hoo!
This blog will be dedicated to exploring (hopefully discovering more and more of) Who I Am, God's dream of me.  Jesu juva!  Solo Dei gloria!  Praise be Jesus Christ, my Lord and Saviour, Lover of my Soul! <3 :) V (BTW those are my symbols for Love, Joy, Peace! )